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I was doing a bit of brain-storming for our first homework of this semester today, you know, how we plan to improve our blogs and what we like best about the blogs of our fellow students. All I could think of during gathering my thoughts was: why is it so hard for me to post regularly? How did the other students manage to post so much, while I was struggling with it all the time?
Blogging is not even new to me. I have always been writing about my private life, starting in 2004/2005 with shamelessly spamming my blog with writing ridiculously detailed posts about my everyday life (which mostly consisted of going to school back then). Obviously, I wasn't the only one doing this -- I knew lots of people on the internet who did the very same, although it wasn't that "mainstream" during that time. It was kind of a scene you belonged to when you managed to let your readers believe that your life is always full of adventures and fun. It made me feel good to present the kind of impressive parts of my life, because most of my readers didn't know me personally. This made it easier to act like a super heroine since they couldn't prove the opposite.
When social platforms like MySpace and Facebook came along, presenting your life on the internet became much more common, and slowly but surely also privacy on the internet became a topic. It was (luckily) the end of my glorious time of thinking "Notice me, internet! I'm interesting!". I started becoming more careful with my privacy, thinking twice whether my posts are worth being posted or not.
However, there was also the other direction: out of a sudden, a lot of people started blogging about their everyday life as well and/or posted their opinions about certain topics with sheer passion, while I more and more hesitated posting on my blog. I just felt that my everyday life was not interesting enough. I felt and still feel that blogging was yet again a way of showing off. My personal impression is that lots of bloggers think of themselves as being extraordinary, and that their metaphorical voice on the internet is loud and of big importance. On the internet, I am one person amongst millions and so in most cases, hardly anybody will be interested in what I ate today or why I don't like ridiculous high temperatures in summer.
In the end, I might be on the way of finding an answer to my question at the beginning: either I'm not self-confident enough to write down my personal opinions or I take blogging far too seriously. Either way, I have to find a better solution to be able to post on this blog more regularly than not posting at all -- at least for the sake of a good grade.
Blogging is not even new to me. I have always been writing about my private life, starting in 2004/2005 with shamelessly spamming my blog with writing ridiculously detailed posts about my everyday life (which mostly consisted of going to school back then). Obviously, I wasn't the only one doing this -- I knew lots of people on the internet who did the very same, although it wasn't that "mainstream" during that time. It was kind of a scene you belonged to when you managed to let your readers believe that your life is always full of adventures and fun. It made me feel good to present the kind of impressive parts of my life, because most of my readers didn't know me personally. This made it easier to act like a super heroine since they couldn't prove the opposite.
When social platforms like MySpace and Facebook came along, presenting your life on the internet became much more common, and slowly but surely also privacy on the internet became a topic. It was (luckily) the end of my glorious time of thinking "Notice me, internet! I'm interesting!". I started becoming more careful with my privacy, thinking twice whether my posts are worth being posted or not.
However, there was also the other direction: out of a sudden, a lot of people started blogging about their everyday life as well and/or posted their opinions about certain topics with sheer passion, while I more and more hesitated posting on my blog. I just felt that my everyday life was not interesting enough. I felt and still feel that blogging was yet again a way of showing off. My personal impression is that lots of bloggers think of themselves as being extraordinary, and that their metaphorical voice on the internet is loud and of big importance. On the internet, I am one person amongst millions and so in most cases, hardly anybody will be interested in what I ate today or why I don't like ridiculous high temperatures in summer.
In the end, I might be on the way of finding an answer to my question at the beginning: either I'm not self-confident enough to write down my personal opinions or I take blogging far too seriously. Either way, I have to find a better solution to be able to post on this blog more regularly than not posting at all -- at least for the sake of a good grade.
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